In loving memory of my precious, Garfield (Jan 2006 - Dec 2015) - Part 2

Today, is the cremation of Garfield. With a heavy heart, we met Garfield at Tengoku Pet Cremation Centre again. Totally cannot bear to see him lying lifelessly on the metal trolley, probably I still can't accept the fact that he is gone. The cremation does not allow us to put any plastic items together with him, so I only managed to give him his two favourite toys, one of which I had to remove the squeeky plastic. While the rest, I will be placing them at home, together with his ash urn. I saw red spots on some of his bones, I could not explain why, but we do think that it could be the cancer affected areas. Thereafter, my heart broke again when I saw him being pushed into the furnace. Nevertheless, we brought him home. While I was carrying the urn, I felt just like I am carrying him, sleeping peacefully in my arms.

It is going to be hard for the next dunno-how-many days. We are still scrolling through all those photos that we took with him, missing his cute, mischievous and greedy face and innocent eyes. I am so not used to the empty spots that he used to be at. He wouldn't waiting at the door, barking and saying "hi" to our neighbours. He wouldn't be begging for fruits or snacks when we are having them. He wouldn't be sneaking under the dining table while we are having our meals. He wouldn't be accompanying us while we are watching TV. He wouldn't be licking our face while we are asleep. One of the thing that I felt most sorry was, he wouldn't be able to witness my wedding or be part of the wedding shoot which I had wanted to do the most. 

I used to think Garfield may have disliked to be in our family. He was always the "boss", always not at our beck and call. He would not be coming to sayang you when you are crying or sick. When you call out to him, he would most of the time ignore unless you have food in your hand. The name "Garfield" fits him so well, cos he was just like that. However, I do come to know that, actually he love us a lot, but did not show it affectionately, or he would not have waited till my dad's birthday is over to say goodbye. I know he is always with us. Mum and maid actually said they smelled his smell on that day, while my brother and I saw a moth hovering around those areas that he always like to be at. Superstitious it may be, but I do know he will be watching over us from above. Just like how I miraculously found my cheque book while looking for his dog license, I swear I flipped the drawer inside out. 

We will slowly walk out of this sadness, for Garfield's love for us, we will learn to be as strong as you. Thank you for all the joy and love that you gave us, we will always remember those happy times. I hope you are happy at where you are now, don't forget us too! I wish in your next life, for the love you gave us, be reincarnated to be a good human and be loved by many. I would love to meet you again too! 

Beloved Garfield

(Jan 2006 - 10 Dec 2015)